denial

have you ever wanted something in your life?
here i mean not some cheesy things you'd like to buy. but its something more.
a chance. time that you'll never even can be bought again. something that you'll lost if you dont take it in that very moment.

well.. i do.. i did?
i fought sooo hard but it doesnt seem to have any result.
angry? yep.
depress? definitely.
like what the hell!? how could you when its all i ever wanted -_-
ah but i see it'll be pointless if i keep debating it.
it will just causing more tears and exhaustion.

well, so after we slipped that opportunity we basically will through some stages and one of them is isolation and denial phase.
i never thought that id be this silly.
in order to let this thing go, i automatically turn on some kind of isolation and denial mode.
no instagram.
no path.
no facebook.
not even BBM updates.
why? becos seeing things that u really want is def the last thing you want to see right now.
what if you want to post something? well... i just literally cover the updates with my hand and go to the "safe" pages. superb silly -_-

hb denial? yeah. you basically keep telling yourself that everything is fine. everything is under control. even deep down you know its not what your heart believe -_-

i hope things will be better eventually.
live goes on