asean scholarship to singapore

hey guys. now im back with a confusing story about scholarship to singapore.

first of all, lets talk about SINGAPORE.

well, who doesnt know singapore? a veryvery small country with a million things for tourists to explore. its so clean, neat, tidy.. with easy transportation system. its so easy for me (as tourist frm indonesia) to go around sing. i really2 enjoy take mrt as transportation. i take that ride as something fun like rollercoaster ride (?) haha, not as transportation.

check sentosa island, suntec, sing zoo, orchard road, chinatown, little india, bugis, and BUNCH moree when you go to singapore. its awesome! :D

second of all, lets talk about the scholarship.

this thing has disturbing me lately. now im moving to other city in indonesia to do my senior year. and just when i started to feel like "this is my new home". i got an "invitation" email from MOE ( MINISTRY OF EDUCATION) singapore to do selection test on 19 august.

i feel soo happy to get this invitation. but i start to think.. and think.. and think a lot more harder. do i need to stay here or fight for the scholar? im okay with lots of work that i need to do from now on to get the scholar. im totally fine.

but im hesitate about how im gonna be there. can i maintain good score. moe will always check my school grade, etc. and if im down. they will take the scholar and leave me with nothing but failure. x_x and can i manage my 'homesick' feeling?

can i forget all of my good friends here?

GOD, help me please ._.